Renata’s Journal 2025

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01/01/25 – Happy New Year!

I hope everyone is sticking to their New Year’s resolutions. Personally speaking, I have not made any resolutions, but I set goals last year that I am pursuing successfully. Christmas was a little better than many others over the last two decades since my brother, parents, and ex-husband passed away. Christmas 2024 was spent with my daughter, we were not short on food and although it was not a traditional Polish dinner we enjoyed culinary delights British style.

In terms of my health, I have noticed my dysphagia getting worse even a small bite of something wet or dry causes me to choke. The other thing I have noticed although I am not sure if it is related is that food when I manage to get it down, sits on my stomach and eventually prompts me to bring it back up.

My OCD is on another level and I am trying my hardest to resist my compulsions sometimes when I forget which has been often lately the compulsion subsides because the urge has been minimized and by that time considering I did not act on it straight away I have felt it was not such a big deal. Ideally, I would like to be able to suppress certain memories and obsessions and start feeling normal.

The more stressed I get the more prominent my OCD gets. I can think of three things that could relieve my OCD, intrusive thoughts, stress and anxiety, but are currently out of my reach:

  1. Erase or Suppress my memories.
  2. Take homemade holistic remedies.
  3. Have an abundance, of good health, wealth and happiness.

Hopefully, I have kept the gorilla I have been fighting with at bay, giving me the opportunity to concentrate on my business and my studying.

Regarding drudging up old memories of past relationships, a person that I never have met but am aware of her existence wrote on her LinkedIn profile that she was blessed professionally and personally, I have forgiven her for her (little dig) innuendo which referred to an ex that I suspected was seeing her whilst dating me and ironically they are now together. I am glad he let me go because I would not be the person I am today if I had ended up with him. I blamed him for many years for the deterioration of my mental health but again I have forgiven him also and will leave it in God’s capable hands to punish him after all I did not do anything wrong. The same goes for another ex who has fantasies about me and although I have remained in contact with him, I have no intention of ever rekindling an old flame. I have moved on and so should he.

All I can say is onwards and upwards and the past should be left in the past.

If I have anything else to report about my health you will find it here.

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Renata The Editor of DisabledEntrepreneur.uk - DisabilityUK.co.uk - DisabilityUK.org - CMJUK.com Online Journals, suffers From OCD, Cerebellar Atrophy & Rheumatoid Arthritis. She is an Entrepreneur & Published Author, she writes content on a range of topics, including politics, current affairs, health and business. She is an advocate for Mental Health, Human Rights & Disability Discrimination.

She has embarked on studying a Bachelor of Law Degree with the goal of being a human rights lawyer.

Whilst her disabilities can be challenging she has adapted her life around her health and documents her journey online.

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